My tattoo

>> Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Yes oh, I have decided to share it after much nagging from various people....[after having written this post about the meaning behind it] I don't mind, but I don't like doing anything that might expose my identity (although a few do know me in real life). I'm an open person but I rather 'reveal' myself privately than on my blog. I know all of you must understand cuz you're very anonymous yourself, most of you, lol.

I am losing my mind nowadays, being a student and in full time employment. I can just feel my chest closing up thinking about it. Every day, questions are buzzing around like annoying mosquitoes in my head. How will I get this done? How will I, get THIS done? How is it possible? Where are the hours in the day, I'm supposed to use to complete all my chores? I'm forced into a corner. I don't feel I have a choice.
Everyone keeps telling me, you have to take it easy, take care of yourself, blah blah blah. I appreciate your concern but I just don't have a choice at this point in my life. Too many of my family burdens are on me, I need to work, I need this money! Plus it's the only good thing I have right now, a good job with great colleagues. At the same time, I refuse to let my education run away from me. I just pray my body will let me keep going until I can take a breather. Every day, I come to work in the morning, then I stay after work to do my studying, and that is my routine, every week. Every weekend I study too, and it's not even beginning to think about cutting it. I am way behind, and many nights I fall asleep on my desk or I just don't know where time went, and suddenly, I'm only one more page into my book than I was 2 hours ago.
The rest of my life is being quite neglected, but I try my best to keep things up and take care of everyone at the same time. Some people I think resent me, and think I just don't care. It's not true, it's just.... I have more than enough keeping up with what I have already. A troubled husband and 3 variously troubled friends that I keep in contact with every week, plus everything else in my life. Everyone asks me, with their eyes popping outta their head, HOW do you do that?!
My answer is always the same...Girl when you find out please tell me, cuz I have no idea.... I want one day where I can just take a shower and pamper myself. Preferrably I would have enjoyed a spa.....*drooling*....Nope, I've never tried that and won't allow myself to spend that money at this point...I want to just eat lots of nice foods, nice hot, homemade meals...mmmmm..and sleep, and watch good movies, and have great conversations. Now that would be something. Spa and restaurants are definitely on my future to do list, just don't have the time to write it down right now. I'm hungry!

Moaning aside, here's the tattoo: P.S: Continuing from last post does ANYONE know how I can post without having to go in and edit all the HTML? This is taking me so much time, and if you read this post, you know that's one thing I don't have...I write in the visual editor, and when I post, all the spaces I put in disappear :-(

16 comments:

Madame Sting April 13, 2011 at 6:36 PM  

oh wow! Pretty! Any meaning or significance? I apologize in advance if you already answered that.

Are you posting using "blogger in draft?" Google ur question, i usually find my answers that way :)
Wish i could be of more help.

I feel you about being stressed. Med school is worse than 2 full time jobs, i know cos i worked 2 jobs before i started med school. Yesterday, at around 4am, i squeezed my notes in frustration. I'm overwhelmed. But as my friend said when i told her "squeeze and unsqueeze" you just have to keep going.

Pele o! Hopefully, you get to a point where you can take a spa day. I chose to "relax" this morning by making time to go do laundry. Isn't life fun :)

Be easy, girl. Here's my mantra which i chant from time to time. "God is in control. God is always in control". It makes me feel better. Plus i have all these motivational quotes that i posted on my wall.
"Persevere and get it done" - George Allen
"If you are going through hell, keep going"- Winston Churchill
"When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on" - Franklin D. Roosevelt.

These things get me through days when i would otherwise go crazy. Oh and blogging helps too :)

Miss Enigma a.k.a UnderCover07 April 14, 2011 at 6:40 AM  

That's one huge tattoo but its pretty. I cnt stand the pain if not I wld like a tiny cute butterfly or smething.

Okeoghene April 14, 2011 at 7:17 AM  

Take it easy. Things will definately get better because this too shall pass

Funms-the rebirth April 14, 2011 at 9:00 AM  

wow, was it painful?
it's pretty

Hugs hun, take it easy...try to take a breather...find that time cuz you def need to take care of yourself, no one will

jhazmyn April 14, 2011 at 9:11 AM  

I'm not a tattoo person, but I must say, that's one pretty piece of work u have there...I like it :)

As they say, life comes in phases, guess what keeps us going on is the constant belief that each phase would pass...and it sure wud...loads of hugs

doll April 14, 2011 at 2:21 PM  

Aw..HUgS* just slow down the pace a tiny weeny bit and make out time for you

your tattoo is really nice. Was it very painful?

Adaeze April 14, 2011 at 4:04 PM  

THanks Sting for ur tips, and ur very useful quotes....I like them a lot! The meaning behind the tattoo I wrote about in the post I'v now linked to, you'll see it all there :)

And thanks everyone for your soothing words. I appreciate no be small :)

About the tattoo - I can't lie, it hurt quite a bit, but totally worth it. I think getting a smaller tattoo thouh would be way easier, because it doesnt take so long. This one took 4 hours, and thats a lot of the reason why it was so painful. Then its sore for a couple of days, but after that, just a beautiful piece of art ;-)

tunrayo April 14, 2011 at 4:50 PM  

You and Sting just helped a lot. See me thinking i was going through stuff. Now it all seems little compared to yours.

I'm shuttling between full time employment, education and the falling apart of certain aspects of my life. But after this, I know I'll be fine. *sticking post-it notes of inspirational quotes on the wall*

I wish you all the best o and if you come up with some magic formula to reduce the stress, please let me know k?

((hugs))

p.s: pretty tattoo :)

Repressed One April 14, 2011 at 11:03 PM  

you be yellow pawpaw o :p. That tat is pretty large but its pretty...looks like it hurt like heck too.

It's gotta be hard to be pulled in so many different directions by so many people and each person demanding they are more important. What can i say? Try not to stretch yourself too thin...A funtional and healthy Ada is more beneficial to herself and everyone. Ndo eh, gisike!

Yankeenaijababe April 18, 2011 at 12:52 AM  

wow!!! That tatoo is creative, lovely and very springy...nice one girl, how much did it cost? I know it's expensive for a tatoo, wow!!!

Enkay April 19, 2011 at 8:53 AM  

Pele darling!

It's the simple things that do make life worth living....home cooked meals, good conversations, ability to take a break when we need it....

I pray that in a very short while, even in the midst of all that is going on right now, you get the chance to just kick your shoes off and relax!

Your perseverance will pay off eventually. I just know it!

XOXOXO

PS: Yeah the tatoo is lovely!

Natural Nigerian April 20, 2011 at 7:21 PM  

Wow! That tattoo is big. It is really beautiful too.

I knew you were busy, but I did not realize that you were THAT busy. I guess all you can do is live day by day...you seem to be doing okay so far.It will all pay off in the end :)

hip recall March 23, 2012 at 6:14 AM  

Quite big but it is beautiful. I wonder that pain you endure just to get inked.

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